1st of june

_so its the 1st blog of june. sorry i haven't been keeping up to date as usual or as i did the 1st couple of days. but as the previous one shows- its short, i was going through something................ anyways moving along now, well yesterday milo [ the guy who inspired me to blog again ] hitts me up on myspace and asks to chill. so we made plans and met at the mall. so indeed it was a pleasure to have met the guy who inspired me to blog, because if it wasn't for him, i wouldn't be writing this, especialy since he made my day haha. we at 1st met at trumbull mall then went off to milford mall, because milford mall has a movie theater. i think you know where im going with this one. well you guessed right, we went to watch a movie. lols hes the 1st guy i went to the mall with or even the movies, some what kind of date but it wasn't a date lols [ haha you can prolly tell by now, i've neva been on a real date;; just those cheesy lil kiddish ones, where we go to each other's houses or chill outside. LMAO] . we went to see the movie called dance flick or something like that, it was pretty hilarious even though i didn't get to watch much of it. but dont ask why. haha. we then left and was gonna go eat but i didnt want to eat alone, even though he was paying- well so far hes paid for everything;; btw ty. but he didnt want to eat and i didnt want him to watch me eat. so then we sit and talk and its time for my ride to come. we get lost, technically i got us lost finding which way out to my ride. haha, he thinks i did it on purpose. maybe i did just to spend a lil more time. sikeeee, jk haha. i seriously can say i dont know my way around, im that map quest type of girl. i guess you can say you dont know your way around until you start driving and its a lil something like that with me. basicaly we did some things* [dont ask] lols, watch a movie, chit chat, he ate and i got us lost. thats pretty much how the dayy went, but overall i was smilin throughout the dayy so i had a good time. he walked me to my ride and said our goodbyes and then left.

i get home and then the fam and i went out to eat at a chinese restuarant. YUMMM, i was hungry and hadnt eaten all dayy. so yay for me lols. came home around 9:30ish. got on myspace of course, since i hadn't been on all dayy. left milo a comment sayin thanxz for today and he said your welcome, thanxz for meetin me there. and then the end. lols usually we have these long lasting convos, but he might have had enough of me for one day today since we spent it chilling lmao. jk. yesterday he told me something and i said i felt the same. and after today, he seriously got me feeling some type of way;; very confuzedddddd about how i feel. but then again it doesnt matter its not like ima see him again, he goes back to fl sunday. so it was nice while it lasted.

anyways its 1:06am. so ima sign off.

pee-ess. [one more thing]
while we sat down in the movies, he asked if i was gonna blog about us meeting. i said no and he said he might. cuzh he usually does blog about these type of things and who he meets or something like that. then he asked if i'd read it and i said no lols. and then he said oh im puttin that in my blog quotes. but looks like im the one who blogged about today surprisingly. lols

its over;; im stupid

i may be jumpin to conclusions, but whatever. i dont like having to worry. long story short, im single holla.

hard time letting go;; BE LOYAL

Yesterday when i left bae , it was hard. i gave him a hug and a quick kiss. As he said to call him and he'll miss me, i hurried on the train;; pretended to not want to miss it. Even though i really did, just so i can spent an extra hour with him, it was hard lettin him go when i hugged him and got on the train. i cant believe its been 6 months that we've been talkin and exactly 10 dayys after we finally meet yesterday. i'll never forget it. As i went to sleep lastnight, i slept in his sweater that he gave me, and as today went by i can't help but want to go see him again. I MISS HIM.....

to be continued....

Okay so im back. i had to wash the dishes and take out the garbage. blehhhh. so as im doing all that, it came to to my mind that although i may seem sprung or a bit too "into" this somewhat type of relationship i got going on but IM NOT, i just like to think that im loyal unlike half the bitches, yes excuse my profranity usually i censor myself if i were to be saying it in person, its funny lols. but yea unlike bitches you see everyday, most of them arent even loyal. nd i am, what girl you know is gonna spend over 6months talkin and never meet the guy and be loyal. its like a dude going to jail and yu got baby momma waiting but behind your back shes doing whatever she can to get money except the smart thing;; get a job hoeeee. no offense to the women that may have a related experience in their life, who are reading this. Just know im blunt and i dont mean no harm because its not ever inflected to anyone in specific but just in general.

1st time for everything

Soo today was the 1st time i learned how to take the train;; interesting much?? sikee not. lols but i was scared for nothing haha. i could see myself taking the train more often. Well anyways i had to take the train to see bae [sam], i had the best day with him. Although we still aren't official because he has trust issues. It doesn't even matter to me,the way it use to. But now im lookin it as if we're already official because hes all mines no matter what anyways and we've been talkin for 6months and still continuing. Nd meeting each other today is just bringing us closer =). So i saw bae in the sweater that im wearing in the pic, and told him i liked it and wanted it a while back while we were on the phone. He said okay, with no hesitations, i was surprised- especialy when he wore it to come pick me up from the train station and gave it to me today forreal haha. So although we didnt get to take pictures together. i thought why not take a picture with what he gave me, lols. Well we spent our time in his room, just kickin back && watchin tv. Although it sounds boring, it wasn't because our chemistry was just on a whole new level. i love his kisses and his hugs. the way that we cuddle and how he sneaks a kiss upon my cheeks and slowly work his way to my lips out of the blue. ima miss all of it and him of course until the next time i see him

thats pretty much it for today. so toodlez

new faces, parties, && festival

Friday- My sister came over and then we had a bbq. She asked if i still talk to the "black guy" lols referred as black guy;; his name is Sam though. Nd yes we still talk ever since november 17th, so its been a bit over 6months, yet we still haven't met. BUT im not gonna go through this agian. so if you wanna read more about it, then check out the previous blog called "A Purpose".- nd read under the picture of the movie cover "A Walk to Remember". Anyways moving along, now my father doesn't know i date, so when she asked me that in front of my dad which i was okay with because i think its about time my dad knows and meets one of the guys but i need to meet him 1st of course lols, but yea his eyes were like O_O. HAHA. Then i told my sister about the time my dad picked up the house phone when bae had called, i was scared. but my dad seemed okay with it nd gave me the phone. My dad knew he was black but didnt know he was more then a friend so my dad asks me if i really like him nd im like no shyt i've been talking to him for over 6months. Then i told my dad about how i showed Sam a pic of him, nd Sam said he was black. My dad was like fuck him!! I was like oh shyt =O. I told Sam about it last night on the phone and Sams laughin and then said i ruined his rep, so now when he meets my dad, my dads not gonna like him. Highly doubt it, things will be fine

[Oh yea we're finally meeting up tomorrow, we planned a skip dayy haha;; but thats another blog for you to read about later on, maybe tomorrow]

Saturday- My sister came to pick me up, spent the weekend at her house, that same night we went to a couple of parties, oh man theres this one guy who kept followin me saying blazin lisa, nd im like stop saying that. ahhhhhhhhhhh and this str8 girl whos bi curious hitts on me. she said to my sister, shes so fkcin cute does she have a boyfriend. my sister then leaves to pick up her Hubby's cousin from work. so she told me to stay with her friend. and her friend keeps touchin me and told me she was bi curious, even if she had a bf. =X. i then left into the house.

Sunday- I went to a lao festival at the temple. met keith from myspace and a few other people. aha keith bought me food. YAY =). then i went to a party. the dj looked as if he was interested, but these 2 other guys i know forshur was. ahh anyways

Monday- went home, nd bbq'ed it.

the end. sowwie if it sounds a bit boring and not highly interesting as my other blogs or well written, but i havent blogged since thursday so thought i'd do so even if its not well worded and facinating but dont get me wrong, my weekend was FUNNNNNNNN =)