A purpose

Ahh lols so yea after the art convention, i came home and blogged of course, went out to eat, and helped mom out with some things kinda took all day. Had some spare time, so i decided to clean my room. i just moved and already my room is as messy as can be and yet i don't even have all my assets still lols. i knew i was gonna blog about the rest of my day so thought why not take a a few pictures of me in my messy room. i never knew how messy my room was until i found $20, whoop di doo haha. Okay well thats the reality life, what about the cyber world. Well as my previous blog spoke about this guy who had hitt me up, he read my blog and comment me about how he felt. He judged me and i judged him. Two wrongs dont make a right. Oh well my fault. He asked if i can remove the blog, but honestly i can say that i can't because it takes away the purpose of my blog, because although i may have been wrong about him, who knows. but if i am im sorry by the way, but its also about guys in general. So i may not remove the blog but i will post this up as an apology, hopefully you accept and if not then what more can i do. i cant please everyone.

Well all that happened before i took my messy room pictures. i then logged on myspace, right before i started to blog, So i got this comment that said, " hey i just read ya blog thing and i never realized how artistic and deep you are. you see a cute face on cyber space and forget that theres a real person " honestly thats why i like blogging, like i told this one person earlier on aim. On myspace sure i may be just another pretty face, but when im on blog and im bloggin about my daily life. It lets people see a whole new side of me, that most people would have never thought i had. News flash there is a real person behind this pretty face, not to sound cocky or anything- because i'm so far from it. Well i guess you can all thank the guy who inspired me to start to blog once more because after xanga i just quit. Now i think its official to say im back and addicted to blog, lols. Also he who inspired me, now i've inspire someone to make a blog to. =), the person who i was talkin to aim made a blog after i had explained what bloggin to me was, sure it may be an online journal, but its more then that. because journals are kept secrets. but this gives purposes, so you can show the world what you have, how you spend your life and your time.

Well back to reality, so theres this guy who i thank for everything. through the struggles and hard times;;at this momment in time im going through alot, especialy family issues. i no longer have a phone so we hardly talk - yet im surprise hes still here by my side and have put up with me for over 6months and we havent even met yet. We have webcammed once. He lives in a different city;; same state, so its not that akward even though we did meet online. hopefully i meet him this weekend =). he gives me a purpose to keep going through the day so i can careless what people have to say about findin love online, at least hes not accross the country. i beleive you can find love anywhere. its not in the matter of distance but where your heart my fall. Distance is nothing of a matter, but the mind. So don't mind the distance. As my favorite movie and i watched it today quotes " Its like the wind. I cant see it, but i can feel it ". If you can feel the love then i for one think that, thats the only thing important. Sure you'd like a hug or kiss and even a shoulder to cry on once in a while but a phone call away will due just perfect. It may not be perfect but its imperfect, and imperfections are what makes life goes around, therefore it is perfect.

well it is that time, the time for me to sign-out. bye lovely readers<3

model a name;; art

Ayee viewers/readers, lets start off with why i titled this "model a name" . i the "model" will model how i got my name, not literally lols. so my name really isn't Elsyee. In fact its Lisa. When i 1st got to high school, this guy couldn't pronunce my last name, i mean not alot of people could, btw my last name is Sychampanakhone, came from laos. Now moving along, he came up with Elsyee. 1st letter in my 1st name and the 2 letters in my last name.

L=El + Sy=Syee = Elsyee

Now the title is also called model because well today there was this art convention that my art teacher had suggested i enter one of my stuff. When i went to the art convention, this guy had came in and asked if i was a model and thought it was a modeling convention to recruit young new faces rather then an art convention. lols, so that kinda made my day i guess in a way, because it was hilarious. i mean look at me, do i look like a model to you?? yeaa, i didn't think so either.

My art work display
before i went to the convention

_To be continued. ima go eat now and gotta help mom with something

Back_Yes i did draw/make that art piece. 1st i had to draw it then go over with ink imported from china and this thick paint that has layers to it. then carved all over it to make it's textures so you feel the bumbs and curves. then went over it with a painted sponge. Most of the colors i had to mix to get.

Most people don't see this side of me especially the cyber world, but you can always catch me in my art zone during art class. btw i love photography to, if you can't tell by the way i took those pictures lols. I'm tryna get into photography class for my senior year, i've asked for it since freshman yr but that class has always been filled up.

as i ponder

_okay so yea its like 4:10am;; and as i ponder myself on other people's blogspot pages. its a coincidence that one of the pages i ran into was an old friend (no names], cuzh nothings ever as private as you think especialy if your on here blogging. as i read her page, honestly when i think about the times we shared for about 13 yrs or so;; i can't seem to remember a single moment i'd cherish for life with her. which is pretty sad to say, but its a good thing. not remembering the bad things in the past, all i remember was i always put forth more effort into the friendship and never got anything in return. the one day i needed her, she wasn't even there or said she couldnt be there. im laying in bed sick to death for like 2 weeks and can't even eat, and you say you cant be here for me. yea thanks your a great friend, yet i foundout she was at the house a block away from mines. what kinda bullshyt is that. although she wasn't there for me, i was still her friend. then one day a rumor spilled that was said about me. and supposively i wanted to fight her. im not a fighter, i express my anger in different ways. why be immature, fight and get a few bruises over something not worth your life. point made its not.

sometimes i even think about hittin her up to patch things up and resolve it, cuz we never even spoke about the situation but just stoped talking. then again you can say if one really cared they'd already made the effort and step up to the plate already. so who knows. i guess its true when you think about it, how many friends have you made throughout your life, now think how many of them do you still even talk to. as for me, none sadly. yes old friends are soon enough new enemies.

_i kept going back and forth on blogspot and myspace of course. so tell me why when i went on myspace this guy kept sending me messages subject as "asap".....clearly under my display pic it says "nooo messages" yet i guess people like him are slow minded and has no intellectual thought in mind. but what triggers their mind is the thought of sex, cuz his 1st message said something that goes like this " if i was your man, you wont be able to walk cuzh i'll break your back or blah,blah,blah." then he asked if i lived in vegas and then the last message he said i was stuckup and asked if i went to some high school in vegas cuzh he thinks he knows me.

why do guys even bother hollering, coming at a girl with no type of sensabilty at all?? why come at a girl all perveted and know your not gonna get an answer and then get madd at her. theres no one other then yourself to be madd at. its obvious guys like that;; have no standards and need to get some higher level of knowlege.

signing out_
I guess its time for me to go to sleep now cuzh its 4:30am. yeaaa
until then i'll be back with more to talk about;; hopefully something excitinh happens in the day

a new begining;; a new face;; a new world

_Okay so back then i remember when i used sites* [xanga) like this to vent, speak on behalf of my life- stories of family issues, boy troubles (mostly heartbreaks], and school. So now here i am starting all over, && you ask why all a sudden to renew my life stories, to start to blog once more. Answer* is;; someone who inspired him;; yet now hes inspire me. To think if i gone to met him, he'd blog about me, but here i am mentioning him in my blog;; he who goes by the name of Milo. The day before yesterday i met him, and i started to read his blogs because i love readin and it reminded me what bloggin did for me. Not only has it helped me become a much better well written writer, but to speak about life that has been lived. To leave behind moments captured as memories the way a camera camptures the true essence of life and people. Moments good and bad. Ones that'll be cherished and ones that we can all learn together from.

_So there goes my introduction;; hopefully its captured your attention. If so, good. And if not, then come along for the ride as each time i post a blog will be of something different, maybe better.

Today_ I've started something new, something i just might have a passion for soon if my well doing is continuous. So figure it out yet?? Didn't think so since i really didn't give out any hint. Well i started to play the piano, so far i've learned to play "twinkle twinkle litter star" and "silent night" all on my own. IMPRESSED* much?? yea i am to lols.
Picture_ taken at 1:25am (webcam photo, on laptop]- only had makeup on cuzh i fell asleep/took a nap and woke up. So i guess i'll be up for awhile.

_Signing out. it took me some thought to even make this account. I like the thought of being able to blog and let the world take a stroll through my life through the cyber world. But then i wasn't sure if i'd even keep up to date with it, if i do make an account. Thinkin maybe no one won't even read it and it'd be a waste of time. But then agian its late and i just thought go for it, if anything i have something to rely on when its times like these this late and nothing to do. Its for me and no one else but if it speaks to you and you like it by all means, come along for the stroll of a lifetime, my lifetime. Thanxz for reading, for those who are reading hehe* =)