its over;; im stupid

i may be jumpin to conclusions, but whatever. i dont like having to worry. long story short, im single holla.

hard time letting go;; BE LOYAL

Yesterday when i left bae , it was hard. i gave him a hug and a quick kiss. As he said to call him and he'll miss me, i hurried on the train;; pretended to not want to miss it. Even though i really did, just so i can spent an extra hour with him, it was hard lettin him go when i hugged him and got on the train. i cant believe its been 6 months that we've been talkin and exactly 10 dayys after we finally meet yesterday. i'll never forget it. As i went to sleep lastnight, i slept in his sweater that he gave me, and as today went by i can't help but want to go see him again. I MISS HIM.....

to be continued....

Okay so im back. i had to wash the dishes and take out the garbage. blehhhh. so as im doing all that, it came to to my mind that although i may seem sprung or a bit too "into" this somewhat type of relationship i got going on but IM NOT, i just like to think that im loyal unlike half the bitches, yes excuse my profranity usually i censor myself if i were to be saying it in person, its funny lols. but yea unlike bitches you see everyday, most of them arent even loyal. nd i am, what girl you know is gonna spend over 6months talkin and never meet the guy and be loyal. its like a dude going to jail and yu got baby momma waiting but behind your back shes doing whatever she can to get money except the smart thing;; get a job hoeeee. no offense to the women that may have a related experience in their life, who are reading this. Just know im blunt and i dont mean no harm because its not ever inflected to anyone in specific but just in general.

1st time for everything

Soo today was the 1st time i learned how to take the train;; interesting much?? sikee not. lols but i was scared for nothing haha. i could see myself taking the train more often. Well anyways i had to take the train to see bae [sam], i had the best day with him. Although we still aren't official because he has trust issues. It doesn't even matter to me,the way it use to. But now im lookin it as if we're already official because hes all mines no matter what anyways and we've been talkin for 6months and still continuing. Nd meeting each other today is just bringing us closer =). So i saw bae in the sweater that im wearing in the pic, and told him i liked it and wanted it a while back while we were on the phone. He said okay, with no hesitations, i was surprised- especialy when he wore it to come pick me up from the train station and gave it to me today forreal haha. So although we didnt get to take pictures together. i thought why not take a picture with what he gave me, lols. Well we spent our time in his room, just kickin back && watchin tv. Although it sounds boring, it wasn't because our chemistry was just on a whole new level. i love his kisses and his hugs. the way that we cuddle and how he sneaks a kiss upon my cheeks and slowly work his way to my lips out of the blue. ima miss all of it and him of course until the next time i see him

thats pretty much it for today. so toodlez

new faces, parties, && festival

Friday- My sister came over and then we had a bbq. She asked if i still talk to the "black guy" lols referred as black guy;; his name is Sam though. Nd yes we still talk ever since november 17th, so its been a bit over 6months, yet we still haven't met. BUT im not gonna go through this agian. so if you wanna read more about it, then check out the previous blog called "A Purpose".- nd read under the picture of the movie cover "A Walk to Remember". Anyways moving along, now my father doesn't know i date, so when she asked me that in front of my dad which i was okay with because i think its about time my dad knows and meets one of the guys but i need to meet him 1st of course lols, but yea his eyes were like O_O. HAHA. Then i told my sister about the time my dad picked up the house phone when bae had called, i was scared. but my dad seemed okay with it nd gave me the phone. My dad knew he was black but didnt know he was more then a friend so my dad asks me if i really like him nd im like no shyt i've been talking to him for over 6months. Then i told my dad about how i showed Sam a pic of him, nd Sam said he was black. My dad was like fuck him!! I was like oh shyt =O. I told Sam about it last night on the phone and Sams laughin and then said i ruined his rep, so now when he meets my dad, my dads not gonna like him. Highly doubt it, things will be fine

[Oh yea we're finally meeting up tomorrow, we planned a skip dayy haha;; but thats another blog for you to read about later on, maybe tomorrow]

Saturday- My sister came to pick me up, spent the weekend at her house, that same night we went to a couple of parties, oh man theres this one guy who kept followin me saying blazin lisa, nd im like stop saying that. ahhhhhhhhhhh and this str8 girl whos bi curious hitts on me. she said to my sister, shes so fkcin cute does she have a boyfriend. my sister then leaves to pick up her Hubby's cousin from work. so she told me to stay with her friend. and her friend keeps touchin me and told me she was bi curious, even if she had a bf. =X. i then left into the house.

Sunday- I went to a lao festival at the temple. met keith from myspace and a few other people. aha keith bought me food. YAY =). then i went to a party. the dj looked as if he was interested, but these 2 other guys i know forshur was. ahh anyways

Monday- went home, nd bbq'ed it.

the end. sowwie if it sounds a bit boring and not highly interesting as my other blogs or well written, but i havent blogged since thursday so thought i'd do so even if its not well worded and facinating but dont get me wrong, my weekend was FUNNNNNNNN =)