Sunday, June 14, 2009

A lil update && blast to the past.

-Okay so, me and sam arent over yet. i guess he really does want to stick around. 3more days && i'll be 7months =)..

- oh yea i've been meaning to do a blast to the past blog, but couldnt find an old pic of me. lols but now i have. because me and my lil bro was talkin about it, and was actually the 1st time i found out he even blogs lols.and i just finish washin my clothes bleh.

-As i look back on my past and what my reputation use to be. i'm pretty happy at how i turned out. i got me a boo whos willin to stick around no matter how many times i push him away for countless and stupid reason or assumptions that i come up with. i got a job interview, i'm almost 18 && movin out [ well i already have moved out. my parents live on the 2nd floor while i live on the 1st floor, but i mean move out into my own apt.]. going for my licsense. i mean its been a rough year and i've manage to pick up the pieces on my own. i have friends, but there just people i hang out with i guess, not people i let into my personal life. so its whatever, i did it on my own. didnt need anyone's help. and all this is comin from me, so thats a surprise, because in all my life, i've always had to rely on someone to protect me, help me, be my rock and now i dont. life is lookin up for me right now. i can honestly say i'm going on the right path.

-back then i was this "hoe" or what people called me , even my close friends which turns out they really aren't my friends because i don't keep in contact with any of them what so ever, even my own cousin- sa
d to say, but life goes on, but what people didn't know was that i got raped, and i may have lost it young. but that doesn't define who i am because look at me today, i've gotten farther then most people have in their whole life and ever will. to be honest and i dont care that im puttin it out there for the cyber world to read, i've only had sex with 2 guys. but that was back then in 7th grade, i havent had sex since then until now, my junior yr. i had sex with 2 other guys. all in all, basicaly it was just 4 guys. and if that makes me a hoe. then im gladly to say im a hoe. but im not because at least i can count the number of guys i did with my fingers and it doesnt have to take up all of my fingers not even one hand. i use to think because i lost it young or got raped, i'd be the 1st one out of my childhood friends to be prego, but im not. YAY for me. but theres no need for me to put it out there and try to prove myself to anyone because my future proves it for me. but i'm just lettin it out, how i feel, cuzh i've felt this way for awhile. people not knowin what they're talkin about. and they should get they're facts straight before ruining one's life.

-pretty much i had a rough yr with people callin me a hoe , even my close friends who didn't even seem to back me up. but its whatever. so taking a look at the past and now, i've become a better and stronger person because of it.


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