FKC MY LIFE

- im just going through so much shyt, im tired of hearing it from other people. like wdfuck, dont you fuckin think i know all that shyt already. so fuckin what i can't do shyt, put yourselve in my position. sure its fuckin easy to give advice but think about it can you fuckkin go through and deal with it yourself. i highly fuckin doubt it. alot of people give out advice but can never fuckin take their own. what kind of shyt is that. believe me or not. base me on my history. do as you please. but i will NEVER be perfect. i can not please everyone, i am who i am, i make poor choices, im young and i will learn from it. one dayy i will make you proud, my dad, my mom, my sisters&& lil bro

i am sorry lil bro that i am not the best example, or role model. i am sorry that it may seem to you that i give up on life, i am trying, if only you were in my shoes or can see things through my eyes and mind. the tears have fallen, i feel like im going through a major break down. but im holding myself as best as i can. its not much, but its all i can do for now. so please believe me when i say i am trying.

i am sorry big sister, with all your help and what you've done for me, i am highly grateul and thank you for everything. i am sorry i am not as strong as you, i am sorry i have not shown my thanxz by trying to better mysel and make something out of my life or at least try. cuzh i know thats all you want. dont ever think you arent a great big sister. because you are. and i love you.

i am sorry dad, i cant be like lyna. i am sorry for being another problem child.im lazy and make lots of mistakes. im sorry i cant help you or havent done so. but i am trying. sorry im not like jime, who makes things so easy. im sorry for makin things harder for you. im sorry for makin you work 10 time harder just to give me a better life. and now that you cant, im sorry im not helpin the situation better

mom, your a bitch. im sorry you cant see dad for who he is, what hes done. im sorry you arent the mom i wish i had, im sorry for even callin you mom. but im thankful that you brought me into this life. just know i will be a better mom than you ever were to me. and best believe im tryin to live life not like you, ima do it different.

i love you all. i promise one dayy. things will be different

[sowwie for all the profanity. highly unlike me.-- tough situation, going through alot]