A purpose

Ahh lols so yea after the art convention, i came home and blogged of course, went out to eat, and helped mom out with some things kinda took all day. Had some spare time, so i decided to clean my room. i just moved and already my room is as messy as can be and yet i don't even have all my assets still lols. i knew i was gonna blog about the rest of my day so thought why not take a a few pictures of me in my messy room. i never knew how messy my room was until i found $20, whoop di doo haha. Okay well thats the reality life, what about the cyber world. Well as my previous blog spoke about this guy who had hitt me up, he read my blog and comment me about how he felt. He judged me and i judged him. Two wrongs dont make a right. Oh well my fault. He asked if i can remove the blog, but honestly i can say that i can't because it takes away the purpose of my blog, because although i may have been wrong about him, who knows. but if i am im sorry by the way, but its also about guys in general. So i may not remove the blog but i will post this up as an apology, hopefully you accept and if not then what more can i do. i cant please everyone.

Well all that happened before i took my messy room pictures. i then logged on myspace, right before i started to blog, So i got this comment that said, " hey i just read ya blog thing and i never realized how artistic and deep you are. you see a cute face on cyber space and forget that theres a real person " honestly thats why i like blogging, like i told this one person earlier on aim. On myspace sure i may be just another pretty face, but when im on blog and im bloggin about my daily life. It lets people see a whole new side of me, that most people would have never thought i had. News flash there is a real person behind this pretty face, not to sound cocky or anything- because i'm so far from it. Well i guess you can all thank the guy who inspired me to start to blog once more because after xanga i just quit. Now i think its official to say im back and addicted to blog, lols. Also he who inspired me, now i've inspire someone to make a blog to. =), the person who i was talkin to aim made a blog after i had explained what bloggin to me was, sure it may be an online journal, but its more then that. because journals are kept secrets. but this gives purposes, so you can show the world what you have, how you spend your life and your time.

Well back to reality, so theres this guy who i thank for everything. through the struggles and hard times;;at this momment in time im going through alot, especialy family issues. i no longer have a phone so we hardly talk - yet im surprise hes still here by my side and have put up with me for over 6months and we havent even met yet. We have webcammed once. He lives in a different city;; same state, so its not that akward even though we did meet online. hopefully i meet him this weekend =). he gives me a purpose to keep going through the day so i can careless what people have to say about findin love online, at least hes not accross the country. i beleive you can find love anywhere. its not in the matter of distance but where your heart my fall. Distance is nothing of a matter, but the mind. So don't mind the distance. As my favorite movie and i watched it today quotes " Its like the wind. I cant see it, but i can feel it ". If you can feel the love then i for one think that, thats the only thing important. Sure you'd like a hug or kiss and even a shoulder to cry on once in a while but a phone call away will due just perfect. It may not be perfect but its imperfect, and imperfections are what makes life goes around, therefore it is perfect.

well it is that time, the time for me to sign-out. bye lovely readers<3